Reading My Personal Journal & Getting Real * Trigger Warning *

  • Published on Jan 15, 2017
  • Dear Universe... Todays' video is one of the most personal I have ever posted, I might even take it down in a few days. I just want to promote oneness and continue to normalize being open and unashamed to talk about mental illness and trauma. I think the only way we can help each other is by sharing experiences and trying to understand.
    Instagram @yaknowme_hitomi
    If you are a victim of any kind of abuse you are not alone and I love you so much. I promise it will be okay, I urge you to buy a journal and talk about your experiences to someone you feel safe with.

    Thank You SO Much. I honor your existence.
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Comments • 326

  • Ughdress
    Ughdress 5 years ago +299

    Hitomi is such an underrated TheXvidr. I want to keep her content to myself but it's so hard not to share w the people who need to hear these things

    • Ro Cha
      Ro Cha 4 years ago

      La Unica Andres ugh same

  • Amy Swanson
    Amy Swanson 5 years ago +55

    As abuse (physical, verbal, sexual or otherwise) survivors, we should always remember that the abuser was not always cold. The abuser is so often created and shaped by the hands of another. And that person was probably abused too, and so on. But we were the last in the insidious cycle. We were the ones who decided to break the chain. Some interplanetary force bestowed upon us the strength (that or we made it for ourselves) to rebuild ourselves brick by brick with our own means. We endured suffering that almost killed us, but we prevailed. We are like magic beanstalks sprouting into the clouds, after being thrown to the ground like nothing.

  • Fatymah
    Fatymah 5 years ago +215

    i think i'm going to start tearing up too. you've done it, you've created your own small universe of happiness and we can all feel it Hitomi. i hope your universe never ever stops growing

  • Deena Fahed
    Deena Fahed 5 years ago +25

    Have you ever read Rumi's poetry? Your writing is so similar and both of you are such beautiful people!

    “Stop acting so small. You are the universe in ecstatic motion.”

    “Dance, when you're broken open. Dance, if you've torn the bandage off. Dance in the middle of the fighting. Dance in your blood. Dance when you're perfectly free.”

    "Don’t grieve. Anything you lose comes round in another form.”

    “Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing
    and rightdoing there is a field.
    I'll meet you there.

    When the soul lies down in that grass
    the world is too full to talk about.”

  • Elena Romero
    Elena Romero 5 years ago +50

    One of my favorite lyrics are the following: "it's not about faking happiness. It's about not letting sadness win."

  • Keda Reed
    Keda Reed 5 years ago +78

    You should go to a poetry reading where you get on stage and read your piece this is so dark and sad but the writing is beautiful

  • Lagom Folke
    Lagom Folke 5 years ago +96

    god, you're such a beautiful person and such a great inspiration

  • David
    David 5 years ago +43

    I wish I could hangout in nature with you and stare into each others eyes until we crying with tears of joy and understanding of the pain we've been through. I live all the way in California but somehow the universe has brought me into your channel and has compelled me to leave a comment.

  • Emily Castaneda
    Emily Castaneda 5 years ago +23

    I'm so glad I found your TheXvid channel. You're like a big sister to me and I appreciate you being on this earth and sharing your message. I'm 13, but I always feel unwanted, worthless, sad. You are teaching me to love myself and that it's okay to open up. Thank you so much

  • Nazare Azevedo
    Nazare Azevedo 5 years ago +14

    Please don't take this video down! I can already tell this will be my go to pick me up video! Love you so much thank you for your wisdom.

  • Malina
    Malina 5 years ago +9

    Writing helped me so much when I was depressed or felt lonely. And painting/art/poetry prevented me from self harming. Most of my writing sucked lol but made that heavy weight feel a little less heavier. Love your writing, it's so vivid. You are a beam of light and positive, raw human energy. You have so much wisdom and it's so damn inspiring!! Thanks so much for sharing babe

  • Jade Green
    Jade Green 5 years ago +128

    funny how this just came about and I was just watching your video about how you were feeling sad and you opened up about a guy who pushed boundaries that you didn't want to be pushed. & since we're sharing I just wanted to say that when I was eight there was a girl who took advantage of me verbally and sexually and I felt helpless and hurt and disgusting at first but then it came out that she had been sexually abused and had projected that onto me. I never hated her or held anything against her but I felt ashamed to have even been alive. if I didn't have faith and love I honestly would have taken my life a long time ago. Thank you for reminding me why I'm me. I really really love you.

    • Amber Dawn Lee
      Amber Dawn Lee 5 years ago +1


    • dxnxx
      dxnxx 5 years ago

      Jade Green im sorry but what video did she open up about that in? i want to watch it

    • Katelyn
      Katelyn 5 years ago +3

      You're a strong human

  • Fae Brigid
    Fae Brigid 5 years ago +24

    Thank you for pouring your heart out. i LOVE you

  • Narges Zagub
    Narges Zagub 5 years ago +18

    Your writing is so beautiful, I look forward to your poetry book 💛

  • Lena Sueños
    Lena Sueños 5 years ago +4

    i'm trying to escape my depression, i've had my journal for a year and i wrote in it for the first time last week, i wrote my new year's goals (cliche) and the number one thing was to be happy and be content with myself, i'm kind of proud of myself because i made my first video and i posted it and it's very me (check it out please) and i actually wrote my feelings here... wow lol

  • Maria Clara L.
    Maria Clara L. 5 years ago +26

    thank you for opening up your jornal, it was so... i'm speechless.

  • kaila villamor
    kaila villamor 5 years ago +7

    I almost never comment on youtube videos just because I feel like I don't have a strong enough opinion on them, but oh my god. You have become not only my favorite youtuber, but my favorite person. I've been watching your videos for only 2 weeks and the things you say are things I wish I have told myself in the past. You're the realest of the real and I can't thank you enough for bringing this much light into my life simply by just talking to a camera! I just want you to know that I truly feel the love you put out into the universe. I feel the happiness and positivity you generously give out. After watching this, I feel happier and more thankful for everything I have and everything that is around me. Thank you for existing.

  • Bekah
    Bekah 2 years ago +1

    You’re such a beautiful writer. I really felt everything and your writing is just hella powerful

  • Sienna s
    Sienna s 5 years ago +2

    I usually avoid anything with a Trigger warning especially at this time of the year. But I somehow knew this video was going to be worth the trigger. I was told once you have heal ..but not just yourself ...all your previous relationships and at least seven generations back in our families. I think that this is true.

  • athena george
    athena george 5 years ago +5

    I connect to this so much, this is so beautiful. You have such a unique soul that spreads out so much light and positivity. Keep doing what your doing and keep growing, your truly an inspirational being of light!

  • vega g
    vega g 4 years ago +2

    I could listen to you read your journal all day

  • //
    // 5 years ago +4

    Hitomi, I am so thankful you posted this. Is there an email I can contact you with? I have had similar experiences to what you have described, and have never really spoken about it. Would I be able to talk to you..? I just think that would help so much in my process of healing. Thank you, sending you love.

  • donut_face
    donut_face 5 years ago +1

    I'm gonna listen to this whenever the world gets me down, it's so uplifting

  • Shanize Forte
    Shanize Forte 2 years ago +1

    Oh my gosh, poor girl! We love you so much and we're all sending you more power and strength to continue to break walls and get better ❤️

  • Linette Yai
    Linette Yai 5 years ago +2

    i literally just want to meet you and tell you my story and to show you and hug you and to cry with you. I've been on a marathon watching your videos and I love you so much. I love the way you think, how spiritual you are and just everything about you. thank you, for letting us hear what's in your mind, for teaching us about mental health and self love and also positivity. you are amazing and I love you with all my heart. I was just crying earlier and I came to watch your videos and I stopped and controlled myself before I lost it. so thank you for making me happy Hitomi. I love you, I hope you have or have had a good day🌹💓

  • TOFU
    TOFU 5 years ago +1

    ❤🌸girl, I'm so proud of you holy shit. It's so hard to talk about the things we have faced. even I can't bring up things that have happened to me but hearing you is very encouraging and makes me feel safer to come forward with things that hurt, because i won't be facing it all by myself. thank you, hitomi. 🌸❤

  • Alli Mckee
    Alli Mckee 4 years ago +1

    This was phenomenal. It brought tears to my eyes. I could resonate with this fully and it helped me realize some stuff about myself. Thank you for being raw and sharing this with us ❤️ peace and love!

  • Kanwal Memon
    Kanwal Memon 5 years ago +1

    This brought me to tears and this energy absorbed to me. Thank you for being you. Thank you so much... I'm so glad I found this beautiful channel.

  • Abisola
    Abisola 5 years ago +1

    This was beautiful and something I really needed to hear right now. Your ability to heal is so incredibly motivating. I'm sorry your school experience was like that, no one deserves that and I just want to give you a massive hug!
    I recently began my healing journey, for the longest time I was content with being sad all the time and I gave into depression without any fight whatsoever. I had always wanted to be a clinical psychologist because helping others had always been something that could make me happy and if anyone ever asked me what I want to do with my life it was always 'make people happier' but because of that I refused to get any sort of treatment or therapy because I was scared it would let me down when applying for the course. I mean how can a girl with depression treat someone with depression? and so I did nothing. Then one day a clinical psychologist came into our university to talk about his experiences and I wasn't even going to attend because I was in such a mood but my friend forced me out. During his presentation somebody asked 'what if you have a mental illness? Will that hold me back?' and he literally laughed and he said of course not, there is nobody in the world who can understand mental illness more than somebody who has/had a mental illness. And he told us he had OCD and suffers from depression but he's one of the best psychologists around. I had to leave because I was so overwhelmed and I cried for the first time in a long time and I called the gp then and there and I asked for help. I get therapy now and I'm so much more happy, I cry so much more which is a good thing, but the best thing is I see beauty. I used to be the biggest pessimist and see the bad in everything and since therapy I see so much beauty! I cried whilst looking at an orange the other day haha but it was so much more than that, I saw all the little segments within a segment and I just thought wow, how amazing that this is a natural creation
    It's definitely difficult to change from the person I had been for about 6 years of just sadness and resent and even now sometimes my initial thought is pessimistic, but rather than voice it, i take time to think about what is good about the situation and voice that instead. For example, it was snowing the other day and my first thought was ffs when this turns to ice it's gonna be a bloody nightmare but then I thought it's not ice right now is it Abi? It's snow and look at how it's illuminating the sky, it's beautiful! Im hopeful that one day those will be my initial thoughts always.

    Stay awesome xx

  • Gabi Maza
    Gabi Maza 5 years ago +35

    All I want out of my life is to be okay with myself. I'm really mad at myself for the choices I've made and things that have happened. And now I find myself at a crossroads. I'm in a relationship and I've reached this level of my mental health that needs a lot my attention. I love my partner but I want to love myself too. I feel such an imanes amount of guilt.

  • Elle
    Elle 5 years ago +1

    Hey thank you so much for posting this. I'm recovering from a lot of similar things and watching your videos makes me feel so much less alone. Thank you for being so honest and loving with all of us who watch your videos. I am sending you sooo much love. Thank you for being you!!!

  • reilly mcglone
    reilly mcglone 5 years ago +1

    i just discovered you a few hours ago and now you just put this up and all i can say is thank you.

  • Ula Kalicinska
    Ula Kalicinska 5 years ago +1

    Thank you Hitomi ,I love listening to your voice and watching your inspiring ,true and beautiful videos ,thank you so much for being real and sharing so much of your life and advice ☺️❤️

  • Sniffles
    Sniffles 5 years ago +13

    This was incredibly beautiful. Thank you for sharing

  • Autumn Brianne
    Autumn Brianne 5 years ago

    Ahh omg I love this so damn much. I've been going through some things, recovering from orthorexia.. I've been writing poems about my body. My ego. Trying to separate the two. I journal a lot! It's so helpful. I sometimes start my journals dear universe!! Or dear fear.. or dear emotions.. whatever I'm trying to channel.. if that makes sense!!! I resonated with this so so much. Thank you for being you. You are so loved!!!!

  • Barbora Zelinková
    Barbora Zelinková 5 years ago +5

    I could never stick to writing a diary, and I regret it a lot now. In late 2011 I met someone who meant the world to me, loved me more than I ever did and made me who I am now, and in early 2012 he committed suicide. He was the kindest, smartest and most spiritually awakened person I've ever known, and I was just a child back then, not fully realising how deep his depression and sadness truly were. I never told anyone about him, anyone I know in person at least, but ever since I've been fluctuating from deep emotionless depressions to very intense self-hate (why wasn't I enough to make him stay), and it is only now, 5 years later that I am starting to accept that it wasn't really my fault, and that the overwhelming love I still feel for him is a positive thing, not something I should be ashamed of or undeserving of. Nevertheless, It's still freaking difficult for me to get any motivation, or just get up from bed. So thanks so much, Hitomi, for teaching me so many positive things about myself, life and the world, and helping me not to give up on myself all the time.

  • kbwoodfit
    kbwoodfit 5 years ago +2

    Because of you.. I overcame my great fear of being "real, raw, and open". I posted my first Vlog in the early morning hours of today. I won't let fear of being without cripple me from going out, and getting/receiving what I desire. I love, and appreciate everything that you are Hitomi ❤️ we will continue on this journey of normalizing such openness between each other. And learning to build a foundation of love that can't be shaken. We will continue to grow, and change. But what a beautiful thing it is!!

  • Amanda Yap
    Amanda Yap 5 years ago

    I'm so happy that your life is now filled with genuine happiness and love. Stay happy Hitomi 😌😌💞

  • merry 98
    merry 98 5 years ago

    i feel like connecting with you on so many levels. this makes me think that we all go through the same things !

  • KimmuPanda
    KimmuPanda 5 years ago +1

    You've really inspired me to get more in touch with my spiritual self again!!
    I used to be, and I used to be the one with positive energy, being there for my friends and helping them. I would write in my journal often and write down my ideas and deep thoughts. And I sort of fell out of it and found myself in a rut. Like, stuck and just not progressing, not being helpful to people like I want to be, and not loving enough.
    This helped me realize what's missing. thank you and ily

  • yoshiha10
    yoshiha10 5 years ago +6

    I didn't even want to watch this video but then I caught myself shearing tears with you.. you are so loving and carrying, beautiful human being, I love you and I'm very glad you have youtube channal.

  • ray
    ray 5 years ago

    love love love the way you write and read and love how real you are always

  • ray
    ray 5 years ago

    love love love the way you write and read and love how real you are always

  • NatsBones
    NatsBones Year ago

    I never thought someone had ever felt what I felt. I never even considered it. Thank you for sharing, I feel less alone now.

  • Leslie Lovee
    Leslie Lovee 5 years ago

    I've been feeling really down lately. I had some losses recently in my life, and I felt the deppression seeping through and the feeling of emptiness and I'd been holding back on watching this because you know the triggers. But this video is so peaceful and Idk I feel your energy and Im so calm and at peace. I just feel this overwhelming inner peace and serenity. Thank you so much!!

  • Olivia
    Olivia Year ago +1

    I had a dream that you wrote a book and it was amazing!! Do you still have an ebook on your poetry?

  • My life be like..
    My life be like.. 4 years ago +5

    "i dont want anyone to feel quilty"
    i know you laughed that off but i feel the same in a sense. like id really like to come out with my story and what lead up to my depression/anxiety i just know a lot of people would think something of it(family member/friends) its sad that we even consider their feelings when they didnt consider ours. but i jut wanted to say thanks for your videos❤ ive been binge watching today and you are just amazing

  • Caitlin Hofmann
    Caitlin Hofmann 5 years ago +1

    I love this so much. Even your journal entries are so poetic and lovely even when their topics aren't. It was like listening to spoken word poetry. I can tell you're such a genuine person. Id love to get a book of your poems!

  • Heather
    Heather 5 years ago +1

    thank you thank you thank you for this video. 2017 really is the year of fearless vulnerability on the journey to healing

  • margie garcia
    margie garcia 5 years ago +2

    Your writing is amazing, the way you word things so perfectly makes me feel what you feel. Thank you, thank you for making me feel like i'll be okay in a chaotic world. I completely agree with you, in a way writing has saved my life. Much love hitomi, love you girl

  • bivi
    bivi 5 years ago +1

    I found you're channel two weeks ago and in that time you're videos have helped me soooo much. I try to avoid anything with a trigger warning but I'm really glad I watched this. You're so inspiring. Thank you for being you xo

  • pppotatoes
    pppotatoes 5 years ago +2

    I want to start off by thanking you for sharing your story. It is so important to bring these experiences to light. As a survivor of abuse, I know how hard it can be to find an explanation for why those things are happening to you. If you're really really lucky, you come to find that even if things don't happen for a reason, at least that trauma led you to something worthwhile. The best thing I ever did for myself was cast out the darkness that existed within me. I'm so glad that you have chosen to do the same. Love u Hitomi

  • Chelsea Lor
    Chelsea Lor 5 years ago

    I just recently found your channel & I love it so much. I love how you're so positive & trying to love yourself & be yourself. ❤️

  • Adrianne N
    Adrianne N 5 years ago

    It's insane, I remember watching one of the first videos where you spoke about The Secret and manifestation and that's now so long ago! You truly radiate so much positivity and happiness congratulations on 50k you deserve it! ❤️️

  • Gillian McCready
    Gillian McCready 5 years ago +2

    You give me so much hope for the future, thank you so much.

  • Gabi Maza
    Gabi Maza 5 years ago +1

    I truly love this. And I agree we are all healing from something.

  • eelean
    eelean 3 years ago

    This video was amazing and so helpful. I love writing especially about feeling my feelings. Thank you for making this!

  • Jas Pierce
    Jas Pierce 5 years ago

    This is amazing to be able to share something so beautiful and so touching to the world 💗your an amazing writer and you have helped so many people including me ❤️ keep doing what you do xx

  • Nikki Starla
    Nikki Starla Year ago

    I’m so glad I found you. Thanks for being open with us. This video really helped me🧡

  • Kiana Vickers
    Kiana Vickers 4 years ago

    This is so beautiful, i've just found you and i'm so glad that i have! This video alone has made me feel so much peace as i know i am not alone in this horrible feeling that is constantly there. Thankyou for being so so beautiful, inside and out, you are such a magnificent soul

  • Skye
    Skye 5 years ago +2

    So incredibly inspiring 💞

  • Michaela Miller
    Michaela Miller 5 years ago +2

    being open abt mental health and abuse 2k17. you're doing something so necessary and courageous. the universe is hearing you

  • meiniemoon
    meiniemoon 5 years ago +1

    Your writing is so beautiful! I adore your outlook on life, I'm so inspired by you 💕

  • Jessica Renae
    Jessica Renae 5 years ago

    I just wanted to say that you have such a beautiful soul, I've been watching your videos these past couple days and I have really enjoyed them! You give off nice energy and I appreciate that.

  • StrawberryNinja Nibbles

    I just want to thank you for sharing!
    I know I’m late, but I’m just now finding this & I honestly think I came across this when I was meant to. This video came at a really perfect time for me. Definitely needed.
    Again, thank you for being open & sharing this personal thought process with us :) appreciate it

    Much love

  • Emmalee Baker
    Emmalee Baker 5 years ago +1

    You're so brave for letting us into your life. I know it's hard to look back but you are helping SO many people in return for that. You're an amazing writer as well :) sending love 💖

  • Karly
    Karly 5 years ago +1

    thank you so much for sharing such a sacred space of your life, this brought me to my inner child. I absolutely love your words, can't wait for your ebook ❤

  • Alesie
    Alesie 5 years ago +1

    I like when people are real like this, its refreshing.

  • Kenna M
    Kenna M 5 years ago +1

    you have really opened my mind and heart up to so much. I love your spirit and the beauty that radiates from you. Everything you have over come and evolved into, gives me a real hope for my future. My time of independence and peace will come just as it did for you. I have watched and re watched your videos, taking notes, learning about how to be happy within myself and how to fall in love with taking care of myself. This year has be such a strain on my heart and soul, but it was a blessing to come across your videos. You inspire me everyday and I look forward to hearing you ta;king about energy, your spirituality and fashion. You taught me to be able to just breathe, and that its okay to think in such a complex way. I go to therapy and she has also opened me up about godess cards and I absolutely love it. The peace and surrentity you have in your eyes is beautiful, and i hope to one day evolve into a healthy , confident , determined person as you. Thank you for changing so much in my life and so many others X.

  • Sebastian Rosemarie
    Sebastian Rosemarie 5 years ago

    I relate to this so much. ❤ Thank you for making this.

  • ella Johnson
    ella Johnson 5 years ago +2

    Honestly I watch your videos when I'm stressed or sad and you make me so calm and your making me go all natural with my hair no more bleach dye heat. I'm just growing it out and you inspire me everyday to wear whatever I want and also you make me smile and you make me feel like I should make everyday count

  • aloha sunshine
    aloha sunshine 5 years ago

    this was so powerful! i learn so much from you, i think i am in that stage right now where stuff from my youth comes up again and tbh i have been pretending like i am fine but i realise i shouldn't be doing that and that i should learn to be vulnerable. you are a beautiful smart person

  • Lilian
    Lilian 5 years ago

    Thank you Hitomi. I've always felt alone with my self hate, thinking nobody would be there for me, but it helps me a lot to watch your videos. Thank you

  • Rylee
    Rylee 5 years ago

    This video was so lovely. Thank you for opening up. I feel like I can really connect to you. You are an inspiration for me to heal and I deeply admire you. Thank you ❤️

  • Maya
    Maya 5 years ago

    Those journal prompts are so beautiful and deep. I use journaling as a way of healing as well.
    Thank you for the video, it was really powerful.
    Much love

  • moimwahmoi
    moimwahmoi 5 years ago

    I think it's such a sad yet beautiful thing how we all can come together to this video and relate so much and just feel so abundantly. This video is extremely needed. We all could use more of this.

  • Jasmine Rebecca Cave
    Jasmine Rebecca Cave 5 years ago +11

    How beautiful.. I am sure you have tried, but I found it very healing to 'go back' during meditation into painful memories from my childhood and past and comfort my inner child/self.. lead her away from certain situations, explain it was not her fault, or just provide a guardian presence where there was none... it shifted so much for me and watching your video has reminded me of that. Much love xxx

    • Jasmine Rebecca Cave
      Jasmine Rebecca Cave 5 years ago +3

      I have personally experienced this in relaxed state where you can almost 'play back' the memory in your mind, from an outsiders perspective. Then I would watch the scene and interject (as my older self now) and perhaps take the child (my younger self) away from that situation or explain what was happening and reassure them. I am by no means an expert and I cannot say this is for everyone, particularly if the memories are too painful to revisit, but it helped me and provides a sense of peace and acceptance x

    • Chantell
      Chantell 5 years ago

      Jasmine Rebecca Foster omg how do you do that?

  • Lexie Evelyn
    Lexie Evelyn 4 years ago

    where did you get your journal? it's so lovely! and this was such a powerful and inspiring video, as all of your others are! i love your soul and your channel so much

  • Lacienaga Lacey
    Lacienaga Lacey 5 years ago

    Hey! this video was really helpful because I've been going through a very depressive week. So thank you for this and your beautiful poems. Also a video explaining that "Law of attraction" bit and your take on it would be awesome. Thanks so much again!

  • Lady
    Lady 5 years ago

    i love how real your channel is & how genuine you are. ♡

  • Candice Skye
    Candice Skye 5 years ago

    I've been having a rough time lately and watching your videos gives me so much peace. You reminded me of the good part of my younger self. When I was about 6 or so, I lived on the side of a hill basically, and life was rough... a lot of tough times... but some of my favorite memories of being with myself and the universe and my own pack following behind me (we had a lot of dogs lol) when I would roam the desert or ride my bike. I was so at peace during those moments and I needed to be due to my hectic reality. It was an escape into the true peace of the world. Dogs panting by my side as I sit on a giant rock in the sunshine, feeling the breeze. I would often run around the desert hills barefoot, and getting a thorn in my foot didn't bother me. I would save little creatures that my dogs would go after and not be afraid to. I was so brave. I was untouchable. In those moments... life was beautiful. Life was real. I get sad that I feel like I've lost touch with that side of me. Maybe that's what I'm seeking within myself. That true meaning of peace and love in my life and for my life no matter how difficult it may be. I feel so blessed to have come across your channel, Hitomi. You're a beautiful soul. Thank you so much for sharing because I was feeling so alone. Much love to you, girl

    KRIS TINA 5 years ago

    this video is so real and full of love

  • SeungJos
    SeungJos 4 years ago

    Wow, that's so brave of you to just pour your heart and soul out and I cried a little with you

  • Valeria Monti
    Valeria Monti 5 years ago

    Thank you so incredibly much for this and in general for existing, you´re so inspiring and talented tbh.
    But thank you for helping me actually stop sleeping all day all week, that's the best I can say, I hope you heal at your own time and your own way.

  • Elena •
    Elena • 5 years ago +3

    I love how Hitomi isn't scared to talk about mental illnesses 💚

  • Lena Inez
    Lena Inez 5 years ago +3

    I really need to start writing more. you are my inspiration tonight 💝

  • Andre Cruz
    Andre Cruz 5 years ago

    keep healing! i'm right there with ya! and you're right growing up is extremely difficult but through the pain and suffering love truly conquers and we rise up stronger. so much realness and truth and you were so genuine in this video it has truly helped me!! please keep it up for me :))

  • peanuts
    peanuts 4 years ago

    i love u hitomi

  • Irene
    Irene 5 years ago +2

    I seriously aspire to be like you one day. ❤

  • Hannah Faith
    Hannah Faith 5 years ago

    This video is so deep and I can relate since I've had a very rough childhood but Ive been trying to not let that effect my life now. I love you so much hitomi you're so strong and beautiful. Keep shining your light ❤

  • Kai Sase Ebens
    Kai Sase Ebens 5 years ago

    thank you for sharing your story. it is so inspiring to see you on the path to recovery. it's helping me on my path as well. thank you thank you thank you. :)

  • Alexis Cook
    Alexis Cook 5 years ago

    Your honesty is truly beautiful. It makes your beauty shine from within. Love you and all of the goodness you bring into this world. You are a gift

  • armi Sierra
    armi Sierra 5 years ago +6


  • Paper Moon
    Paper Moon 5 years ago

    You are such an amazing writer. It's so real and so powerful and the words just fit in the most perfect way

  • Alice Watts
    Alice Watts 4 years ago

    Ahh I just did a video on this too girl! It's tough ❤ thank you for sharing 🙏🏻

  • peanuts
    peanuts 4 years ago +1

    I love your long videos so damn much and the emotion u bring to me always make me feel better! I download your video and listen to it 💤

  • Hannah Vasquez
    Hannah Vasquez 10 months ago

    Thank you for sharing

  • Vivian Zee
    Vivian Zee 5 years ago

    i feel really inspired when i watch your videos

  • Thirteen Nyree
    Thirteen Nyree 4 years ago

    this is great... poetic writing... pouring out your emotions.

  • Jaimee D
    Jaimee D 5 years ago

    you're so real hitomi you truly inspire me💕💕💕:)