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My panic attacks are horribly unfavorable. I cry, hyperventilate, scream uncontrollably, seize... I don't know how to stop doing this...

I have a thing with yelling and loud situations. Recently, I had a panic attack after my father yelled at me and I had my first really bad panic attack. I felt like I couldn't breath and every sound felt really loud. It was actually very, very scary. I'm still not sure what to do when I have a panic attack.

People be like Just don’t

Illy, I hope you know that there are people out there who get it (at least a little), and while I don't actually know you (I'm just a stranger on the internet, what do I know), when I started having panic attacks it was super isolating. It made me fear for my relationship, my job, my friendships, and my long-term ability to function as a human being, which (of course) made everything worse every time it happened, for a long time. My fears were not about social anxiety but about feeling out-of-control. It is like literally as though the fear of a panic attack is what causes the panic attacks. Like an endless loop of terror. Like Russian roulette. Will it happen at my job? Will it happen while I'm driving? Surprise! It happens when I slam my finger in a door by mistake! Nobody saw that coming! I didn't get better, but I have friends who understand why I am the way I am, and love me anyway, and understand my limitations. It took a LOT of convincing. Even now, in the moment of terror, it still feels like nothing will ever be okay, but I can guarantee that people will still love you even if you have these moments where you don't feel like yourself. I know, because I am one person who cares. I would cry if you got hurt, and I would be angry if you were wronged, and in the same way, I would feel sad that you were feeling the way you were when you panic, because I know that it isn't an easy feeling to experience. And I'm just a stranger on the internet, but I just want you to know, because it matters, and so do you.

Yep i have the same problem

Did you rip anyone’s arm off at school when you were a damn clown?

Me: *Has Social Anxiety* Also me: *Somehow manages to get on stage and sing/play drums to a lot of people without breaking and after it, when alone, get the rush of anxiety* It's funny in a way

Hey WALUIGIIIIII

As someone with panic disorder specifically, I can very much relate and I definitely intend to use this video to help people understand when they ask about my condition and need something more visual! 💜

Respect for putting your story out here

Wno esle got affened from that Christmas in winter joke (aussies)

Anxiety: This is totally a good time to get anxious and panic. Hey, are you listening to me?! Me, internally: *Staring from the deep dark abyss* Anxiety: *On phone* *_Mom come get me, I'm scared_*

Me too

Illymation: is advertising Cayote: vibe check

I’ve never related to a video more.

*_GOD BLESS_*

*LOOK MOM I LOOK LIKE ME NOW* I'm actually dead 😂😂😂😂

Do you play hearthstone

Harris: Im just pathetic :c Me if i was in that situation: YEA U R STOP SPAMMING AND HARRASING MEH >:c

On Christmas Eve - eve Me: my birthday

Wait this is actually a thing? I always thought that was just me being overly nervous. My thoughts don’t go to that extent but I always feel like I’m being judged, everyone hates me, that I annoy everyone and that type of thing. Also kind of random but when I buy things I think I’m annoying the cashier and that they don’t want me there, so I never order food. This usually leaves me overly stressing and hyperventilating, when it’s really bad I pick at my skin and pull on my hair, but that doesn’t happen often. Thanks for spreading this video so I don’t just feel like I’m over reacting 😊

Me: *having a really bad panic attack* Dad Screaming: STOP BEING A BABY AND CRYING AND GET TO SCHOOL OR ELSE *precedes to break a radio he was fixing to scare me* (True story he has broken other things even some of my own just to scare me into complying with him which makes me come to school barely able to breathe from crying and a counselor just telling me it was my fault he did it)

I want to chop his body off and give it to a shark

I’ve only had a panic attack once in my life before in sixth grade, but the only thing that happened was I couldn’t breathe and had to go to the nurse’s office, which I believe is the only time at that school that they actually helped me with any injuries

I named my pt cruiser Sean because he was the color of champagne and I know it's a French alcohol but I wanted to give him a Irish name because Irish people are known for drinking any alcohol and one of their most common names was Sean, sadly I got in a wreck that wasn't my fault and he got totaled

Ooooooooh. So this is what I have? I didn't know that. Well then. How do I get rid of it?

Sloppy joes are good

Everytime I'm stressed I just play a sudoku on my phone

South Korea I want to go there :(

I'm so sorry this happened. I am dealing this this kind of stuff right now and I don't know how to get out.

It’s the worst when you just *cannot* breathe for the life you... literally

I lost my cat two Weeks ago. She was nice and gentle cat she was named Søs. I come from Denmark

This girl in my classes at school once asked me and my best friend how it was possible we were theatre kids who acted and were generally very expressive around any amount of people could have social anxiety and the both of us just kinda laughed and said "Oh we still do those things, we just have crippling anxiety the whole time" and she went "...Oh" and we just smiled

3:35 look on the top left

Her first crepe didn't have chocolate. Whole trip was a waste.

Oh my gosh I played lion king to. Except I would play with my sister when Nala and simba where escaping form the hyenas. I would always drag her up a couch or slide

So many memes....so many

Me: *tells mom I might need to go into therapy because I might have anxiety and or depression, because I show signs of possibly having it and simply talking to a professional might help* My Mom: What do you have to be depressed or anxious about?

God i remember the times where you either had an option of square pizza that taste like cardboard, cheeseburger that felt stale and made mcdonalds look like gourmet dishes and a bag filled with graham crackers, cheese and a baby bag of chips. Going from that to highschool food felt like achieving nirvana (even though highschool food isnt even all that great either)

Thanks for making this this is probably the most necessary video ever

Love that when she said a great TV show she had She-ra and the princesses of power. I LOVE THAT SHOW!

I remember once in 5th grade I was a line leader and noone shut up, so then a teacher yelled at me that I wasn't doing anything and *SHE SAID* ," *You're fired!* " And then I was hyperventelating at the back of the line and trying to calm down after 4 other classes saw her yell at and my friend asked me if I was ok, then I burst out in tears and then was self countious about anyone thinging I was a baby so I hid my face. *G* *o* *o* *d* *t* *i* *m* *e* *s* *g* *o* *o* *d* *t* *i* *m* *e* *s*

I liked chicken sandwich but I just eat the chicken lol

My mom refuses to take me to a therapist because I don’t have a lot of physical signs when I have anxiety attacks unless it’s really bad. Even when my school contacted her about some unhealthy coping mechanisms. To see that other people are going through this stuff makes me feel a little bit better. Thanks, Alyssa :)

One like is (here or on the video 😉) one karate kick in the ribs for Harris

When she said she has hurted herself hit me hard cause I have so many scars since I was 11

Illy the first time she sniffed that candle: I sniffed a candle and I liked it, scent of it's waxy goodness.

Anyone else get super jealous of a friend’s other friend and worry that they like them more than you and they actually secretly hate you....but then you realize you’re kind being greedy and you just sit there in a puddle of anxiety of losing the only person that makes you wanna keep existing.

ILLY, i dont think too many dating is a good idea TAKE A BREAK

Gurrrl I got you. I'm no pro but if you have any questions I got a lot of pale and ginger friends and I did a lot of research for them

14:02 Wait, where is Sir PELO

the forks weren’t that tasty

This video really touched me. Social anxiety can be a beast that can consume you. It's bad enough always being concerned about other people's opinions, but it can be a gateway to things that are much worse. Personal story incoming. I was never the most attractive person, and I was fully aware of this, but at a certain point, I began obsessing over how I looked, and eventually, this obsession turned into anorexia which lasted for about three years, until just recently when I got treated for it over the summer when I had to go get a physical for marching band. Fast forward, I'm fighting every day to make sure that I don't relapse. This video is so important. Maybe it'll help someone deal with their anxiety. Maybe it'll inspire others like me to come out with their story and share it with people, even if it's just online. I really hope youtube doesn't suppress this video, and I really hope that you continue to make content like this, Illy, because it's something that needs to be said, and people on this platform are getting increasingly scared to talk about mental health.

SHE-RA AND THE PRINCESSES OF POWER

Also i tell my brother I have anxiety and he was “ oh you’re just lying because you just want attention “ but I do have it and now no one believes me I have anxiety except my friends

"Holy crap its chicken jesus"

At 3:28 did anyone else see the loss reference on the right?

When my mom says stuff it like reaction in Spanish it makes my heart drop

ILLY : i am going to make u stay away from me Harris : what are you going to do huh??? ILLY : imma going to CALL DA POLICE POLICE : THIS IS DA POLICE BETCH

C ITS C!!! 2:30

LMAO that intro

I had a panic attack in *_health class_*

I know what you were going through but I’m good now😔

Relatable

Neighbor : mOmMy Me : oh gawd get the holy water

Pizza

SHERA AND THE PRINCESSES OF POWER!!? *thank u illy!*

IM HERE FOR THE CHAOS

That’s tuff

Me anytime someone talks about social anxiety Me agrees to everything thing they say Also me doesn’t want to say I have anxiety when I’ve never been diagnosed

*snjört the candle*

6:55 Just wanted to point this out here: I'm also a person who also struggles with anxiety. But you can always be that person who OFFERS to help. Being that kind person who just offers, can mean SO MUCH to a person who is struggling. Even if they say no. The notion means tons. For example, I'm a new mom. There have been times at the grocery store or other places, that i'm struggling to juggle my child and many things around. I get to the point of tears because I am overwhelmed. When a stranger just offers to lend a hand, or just distract my toddler while they're either throwing a fit trying to grab everything on the shelf, it helps tremendously. Those few seconds allow me to take a deep breath and continue on.

Hi I just wanted to to say your really pretty illy ok have a nice day also your cat is very cute

4:03 Me when my friends provoke me

hi there! i really just want to let you know how much this video helped me - i’ve been diagnosed with social anxiety a few months ago, but i’m still so used to the idea of people responding to everything with either “haha that’s not a real panic attack though” or the opposite, “no i have those all the time that’s just being nervous ahaha”. this really helped me feel somewhat secure in myself. i have panic attacks but i still find that so difficult to say out loud, so hearing from someone else with social anxiety going through something similar really made me feel valid in some sort of weird way, because so many people have told me before that i don’t actually have panic attacks that i have a lot of trouble thinking that i actually do now? if that makes any sense? anyways i’m so sorry you have to read through my weird rant, but i just want you to know these videos are really helpful to people like me, who don’t really know what they’re going through :) thank you so much, and i love your videos!

Me: *panicking because my job suddenly tells me I have to answer the phone for to-go orders even tho I’ve never been trained and hate talking to customers over the phone* My GM: “this whole ‘nervous’ thing is silly, it’s not that big of a deal, you’re answering the phone”

3:28 iS ThiS LoSS?

Teacher: shows his disappointment in me Everyone else: ... My brain, to me: "You're an unforgivable, idiot monster" Me, one hour later: stabbing myself with an exact-o-knife in an empty classroom Me, three hours later after I've patched myself up: "FUCK that teacher!"

Wow I didn't know chick fil a was like that

“God bless”

OMG IT BE HOLLY

Me and my dyslexic ass: "Piano Attacks" *w a c k*

I hate panic attacks, I had one at a drama club audition. We didn’t have a choice, we had to sing, BUT I DIDN’T LMAO! On stage I started crying, I couldn’t breathe well, I couldn’t speak, and my legs committed not alive lol. It was so embarrassing and I also have social anxiety So.... I kinda sorta ran away from the audition 😂 one of the most embarrassing things that have happened to me

I love this video so much! <3 After watching it really made me happy and less alone. My anxiety spikes ( if you’d call it that) in one particular class. When it does spike, it makes me second guess myself . For example, I’d be taking a test. I am now reviewing my answers and feel aching in my tummy. So I would change the answer, even after several times checking. Then when I get my test back, I would usually have a D - B on it. And the main reason I do this is 1. I’m In a advanced class ( So I’m more pressured to get the stuff correct)2. My classmates aren’t the best 3. My teacher always has assigned seats and my seat is always we the part of the class that has the bully’s.

wow it smell so good

You could have reported him for rape.

I have anxiety and sometimes when I get nervous my hands start to sweat and tears come out of my eyes

Noah. GET THE BOAT!!!!